This is going to seem weird to you. Well, maybe not.
The more I grow up the harder it is for me to make a Christmas list.
There are many things I desire. Clothes, make-up, skin care...
Since I started this blog I want to try everything is out there like if a hungry little make-up beast had been awaken and I want to become the fashionista I've always dreamed to be.
But somehow I can't let my beloved ones to spend that much of money on me.
I would happily accept presents if I didn't know they were thinking to get me something on the first place. But deliberately telling them I want "THIS" doesn't seem right for me.
Everything I want, I want to be able to buy it by my own means.
I'm just simple like that.
Ant that's why my Christmas perfect gift this year would be a job. A TRUE job.
Starting January first I'll be unemployed. Which actually has turned out to be a good thing.
I always manage to find alternatives and I have some things from here and there, so I can't complain. As long as I'm working, I'm thankful.
But yet, none of these jobs would really help me get in the professional path I want to enter. I don't want A job. I want THE job.
I really need it. That's why I came to Geneva in the first place.
Getting out of the career pathway you had planned is not easy.
First I went through commotion: it took me time to accept that I didn't like anymore what I dreamed to do. That it wasn't like I expected.
Second there was the eternal question: so what now? if I don't do a PhD like any other biologist out there, what would I do? WHAT? someone tell me please!
Third people would love to say you will not make it: No mum and dad, PhD is not the miracle solution to assure a career and YES! I do love what I studied, but I want to work from a different perspective. Strangers out there, stop asking: oh nice biology, so what's next? a PhD? no? oh so what there is to do for you then?
Well, actually many things.
Once passed that moment of frustration, I discovered there is a huge world out there full of possibilities. It isn't easy, but it is out there.
It is also scary.
Let me give you the image of the last few weeks.
Friday 30th Nov: By seriously pure azar, in between I don't know how many work offers in finance and banking, I found THE offer.
Friday 7th Dic: They contact me by email for an interview. Laugh with me, but at first I thought it was a joke!
Monday 10 Dic: First interview went A-M-A-Z-I-N-G
Tomorrow, Friday 14th I have an interview with my "hope to be" boss.
If all goes well and it should, it's done!!
Needless to say, I've been scared. Scared of not finding a job, not receiving answers, receiving negative answers, of going through and being turned down...I'm still scared that it is not foing to work. I'll let you know how it goes, but for the moment I'm chosing to be scared because my dreams are way to big.
Hope you are having an amazing week!!
Sorry for being a bit MIA!!